Friday, January 30, 2009
moment to moment
I spend every day thinking about art in some way shape or form. I spend every day wondering when I will find the time to paint again. When I will make my mind stop and sit down and work at it again. Some days I stop and sit down and work. Many days I just think about it. Think, think, think. Lots of days are spent sitting in front of the computer futzing around with listing things in my etsy shop. Other days are spent trying to work up something that I like for my 1000markets shop. One day was spent cancelling my premium cafepress shop because I thought it was silly. I like the cafepress quality but I don't find the need to pay them for a shop that I rarely sold anything on. This brings me to how I can spend my days thinking about what sort of online venues I should use to try and sell thing. Whole days can be spent wondering what to do to market my work. Days and days and days and days....and then I break down. I just want to be able to sit and paint again. When I was 28 I lived in a tiny condo w/ my boyfriend and two of his friends and I would ignore them in lieu of going and hiding out in my bedroom and painting on the floor in a cramped little style. Now I have the luxury of room to paint and I don't do it. Well, I DO do it, but I don't drop everything. Yes I suppose it's true that I have a child to care for now. But I could still carve out the time. Or organize the time more appropriately. Of course, something I really should remember is that when I was 28 the internet didn't exist. Yeah, remember those days? And if you are reading this but are too young to remember such a time....yeah, it existed. I think I need to ditch the computer. But on the other hand...the computer is what has made so many people that I would otherwise never have known, know that I paint. What a conundrum. I don't know what I'm doing wrong, but I'm hoping that one of these days I will get it right.